Empty, hollow, a never ending void, the way you left me feeling when you left my heart destroyed,
Shattered, broken, a mere shell of a man, your actions were so ruthless I simply could not understand,
Lost, anxious, hopelessly depressed, questioning my worth because I gave you nothing but my best,
Shocked, confused, where’s my self respect? I invited all this pain when I accepted this neglect
Your silence tells me a story, your smile contradicts your eyes, your body language says all that needs to be said, yet your words take me by surprise,
Show me the true you my sweet stranger, show me what lies beneath, I can read you just like an open book, so remove your sword from its sheath,
Take your best shot, hit me hard, cut me deep, get under my skin and reach deeper within, shake my core, reveal to me your darkest sin and understand acceptance from one who is not your kin
We all have a past, we’ve all made mistakes, we all have traumas filling our plates, we all want a clean sheet, a wiping of slates, but rising from failures is what makes us great
Cape Town, my beloved city, bright lights they do adorn her, mountain peaks and busy streets, beauty on every corner, sweet smelling flora, most majestic fauna, just a handful of her wonders make it hard not to adore her,
The mother city, all her children, a cultural melting pot, flavours of all ethnicities, together they have been brought, such great unity, a home for all that have sought, her splendour chases you, and just know you will be caught, give thanks to our forefathers, for this is why they fought,
The beauty of bustling beaches, the great Garden route, the history of the Cape flats, the depth of our local roots, the summit of Table mountain, in hardy hiking boots, snowing Ceres mountains and delicate fynbos shoots, the mother city welcomes you
A shadow can only be cast in the presence of light, a day can only be made through the reverence of night, understand that these two go hand in hand, opposites yet equals in the lifetime of man,
The good and the bad, the highs and the lows, the sun in the summertime, the wintery snows, autumn leaves fall, spring time leaves grow, your hard times aren’t permanent, I hope this you know
You’ve known me for years, we lost touch and reconnected, so much time has elapsed and yet our friendship is unaffected,
Things have changed and so have we, but yet we still share a deep connection, our bond is strong and has survived, as if it were natural selection,
You became a mom, I became a dad, our priorities had changed, but yet somehow with things different now, we never felt estranged,
You have always and will always be my closest friend, time may pass and things may change, but we’ll be friends until the end
Should you seek me, you would find me all alone inside my cave, to my thoughts there, I am enslaved, but where the solitude is my comfort, I have stayed,
Far away from the eyes of judgement, except that of my own accord, a dark place inside my mind, filled with pain that I have stored,
I grow quieter and quieter, I have left this world behind, I am willingly in a prison, a prison crafted in my mind,
A dark place, a cold place, where all trauma seems to echo, old wounds are hard to let go, but in my head I’ve made my bed though and I’ll have bled until I’m dead but still I can’t let them know…
You didn’t hear me, did you? My face started to shiver, the sky went dark as my hands started to quiver, thunder roared from the skies, my blood ran cold as an icy river
You don’t hear me, do you? I felt my mouth run dry, felt like years gone by since I felt the urge to cry, a single tear dropped from my eye, so much time wasted but yet I still try, you grab my hands, why do I still feel shy, I still love you, but should you ask, I would deny
You won’t hear me, will you? I finally resign, the skies open and the sun begins to shine, warm my blood once more, light the candles to my shrine, my body, my temple, perfect architecture of my design, I don’t need you to notice me, I’ll be just fine
My trauma, my teacher, my motivational speaker, whisperer in my ear, most bias preacher,
Moulded in the harsh environments of life, blackened coal of pressure, suffering and strife,
My trauma, skilled sculptor, you have formed me in your image, with your patriarchal pressures, made part of thy lineage,
Talented builder, your walls hold firm in mind and heart, gatekeeper of vulnerability, your influence present from the start,
My trauma, heartless torturer, yet my best interests considered, cold and unforgiving, hands tied since the beginning
Your mind a treasure trove, your body a burning stove, your soul a peaceful land, love more bountiful than desert sand
I can’t help but stare into your eyes as they lead me on a new adventure, what an angelic presence, no conjecture, heart to heart, high blood pressure, let our spirits moan with the tone of a heavenly falsetto
Take my hand and fling me to new lands unknown, let us float through the stratosphere, swim the caverns of the deepest seas, dance throughout the galaxies and set our imaginations free, babe become as one with me
The first time we met, I had no idea you would change the way I see the world, I had no idea life could feel this way, I would gladly take your hand into the sunrise to seize each day
You opened my eyes to colours and the way that they feel, the passion of a fiery crimson sunset, sweet serenity of amber fields and rolling green hills, the soothing azure of an ocean riddled with ripples
You helped me hear words unspoken, realise dreams untold, to sit surrounded by darkness and watch the beauty unfold, be cleansed by the purity of a blinding light, to find what matters most, to stand and fight
You showed me the world through your charming eyes, so full of hope, your touch in anxious moments has helped me cope, your calming voice in the silence of deafening depression, your acts of kindness when faced with raw aggression
You understand me and I pray I understand you too, soulmates on an astral plane, a real love so true, everyday a new connection, our true love brand new
Pandora Poems 