Tag: #depression

Foot prints on the moon

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Go quietly, go peacefully, leave your tiny foot prints on the moon.

Wait for me amongst heavenly bodies, where we will meet again soon.

Your journey has sadly ended and yet, it’s only just begun, in a moment I will close my eyes, one final time, and we’ll be together as one.

For this world did not deserve you and I fear neither did I, but this life feels like a hopeless void without my tiny special guy.

So wait for me and please don’t cry, mommy is on her way. It won’t be years, weeks or months, I will be with you today…

Death of a star

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Bury the embers of our once bright flame,

Stomp the dirt so they may never burn again,

Pray for rain so they may never rekindle,

The death our love,

Made to sound so simple,

Forget to mention the warmth that flame provided,

Why choose to remember only how it divided,

We once burnt bright as any star in the sky,

Only to discover, the brightest stars start to die,

So make a wish for every star that you see, for we don’t know who’s love each star may be.

Will I ever escape…

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I recognize it,

The metallic scent that sweeps the previously peaceful meadow,

The once life giving aquamarine rivers now an ominous crimson hue

A dense smog blankets the world, tinting the sky a foreboding shade of grey

Ash rains down like delicate snowflakes in the heart of Winter

My breath labored, my heart pulsating, I fear I may never escape your pursuit

I recognize it,

For on my best days you lurk in the shadows, unseen but not forgotten

On my worst days the world distorts, reconstructed in your haunting image.

Depression & Anxiety

Intrusive thoughts…

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Thoughts of death lately seem to fill my mind, clock watching for gate keepers occupies my time, dark thoughts so suffocating, swallowing the shine, sadness behind the biggest smiles, standard answer, I’m fine,

It’s my choice to suffer in silence, all who care have tried their best, carry the world upon my shoulders, yet can’t seem to lift this weight upon my chest, well put together on the surface, yet beneath I am a mess, the long sleep grows more appealing, if I may, I must confess,

Do more, say less, pats on the back, they’re so impressed, always giving and giving has left me stressed, all these expectations of my best have left me without rest, as I spiral through a hornets nest of intrusive thoughts I can’t digest, but I’m needed so I must digress, your love is the only reason all hope hasn’t died yet…

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Betrayed…

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Empty, hollow, a never ending void, the way you left me feeling when you left my heart destroyed,

Shattered, broken, a mere shell of a man, your actions were so ruthless I simply could not understand,

Lost, anxious, hopelessly depressed, questioning my worth because I gave you nothing but my best,

Shocked, confused, where’s my self respect? I invited all this pain when I accepted this neglect

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Solace in Solitude

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Should you seek me, you would find me all alone inside my cave, to my thoughts there, I am enslaved, but where the solitude is my comfort, I have stayed,

Far away from the eyes of judgement, except that of my own accord, a dark place inside my mind, filled with pain that I have stored,

I grow quieter and quieter, I have left this world behind, I am willingly in a prison, a prison crafted in my mind,

A dark place, a cold place, where all trauma seems to echo, old wounds are hard to let go, but in my head I’ve made my bed though and I’ll have bled until I’m dead but still I can’t let them know…

Your game

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You say that you love me, tell me why don’t I feel it, your actions paint a different picture, you try to conceal it

As long as the world sees such a happy pair, why would the world think I’m living in despair

Living in isolation, a cage crafted by me or you, are you the only one to blame, or am I responsible too

Looking back on every day, the things I have allowed, I danced to every tune you played, I tried to make you proud

So maybe it’s my fault aswell for playing your cruel game, but should I leave and not return, you’ll be the one to blame

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Phonophobia

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Can’t gather my thoughts, all this noise is confounding, can’t think anymore, every sound just compounding, I make every effort to block it all out, but the Achilles moment is simply a SHOUT!

A Thud! And a Tick! And a Clap! With no beat, a BANG! And a Screech! Make my minds music sheet, I plug my own ears and clench my eyes firmly, a last-ditch effort for screams not to discern me

I find a quiet corner, my eyes starting to tear, I continue to suffer, Phonophobia